OK, I'm tired of people saying, "Aren't you excited, you're going to be so skinny and pretty!" That just makes me cringe. I am not going through all of this to be "pretty". I don't think I'm so bad looking right now. Looking better is a nice side benefit, but more than anything, I am doing this to avoid disease, to live longer, to have more energy, to ride a bike and go hiking and have fun physically with my family. It'd be fun to get back on the stage and do more performing. Wearing cute clothes and looking "good" seems like a very superficial reason to spend $13,000 and go through surgery. Certainly I will enjoy that, but that is NOT my primary focus. There, I said it.
I've lost 12.5 pounds. Last night I had a "slushie" drink and drank it through a straw. Big mistake. I guess they tell you not to drink through a straw for a reason. I had so much air in my stomach I was really in pain for a while. It was good to remind me there are rules for a reason. This morning I'm eating cream o wheat. Mmmmm. It's interesting though, I must be used to eating this way because I don't feel that same panic about eating. I'm really ok with it now. Maybe I'm getting over the withdrawal phase or something.
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